2010...The most important lesson

You know, I've been thinking about this year of 2010, and what have I learned from all the trials and from the good and the bad experiences.
I'll tell you that, God has really thought me some very important lessons about  FREE AGENCY and many other gifts.
I learned that we do have the free will to choose.. man! Is kinda hard to talk about this for me, because, the Lord showed me in a very sacred way the value of free will. I'll just let you know this, FREE WILL it's an amazing, wonderful gift! And I'm so greateful, very greateful to have and to know how important it is. But there is a limit, there is a moment were God has to step in and make the final choice for you, and is at that point, were your free will don't really matter, you have to live with the consequence of that choice, being that choice good or bad (O be wise: what can I say?- Jacob 6-12).
That's all I can say... be wise.
This year I learned to loose the FEAR OF DEATH. Loosing those who I loved so dearly, and even mourning for those who lost someone that I haven't even met, help me to grow the desired in my heart to be READY when my time comes.
To deal with so many deaths this year, has showed me that it is real, and it does come to everybody and everyone, specially to those close to us... even me. And it can come in the most unexpected way. That's why we have to LIVE our lives, and not just survived.
This year I've learned that GOD's will is more important than anything. He is the wisest of the wisest, and no matter how much we want something, His final decision is the most important... BECAUSE HE KNOWS BETTER! And I have a testimony of that.
This year I learned that God never, never leaves us alone, He is always there, right by our side.
This year I had to learned to reconized when He was with me, I had to learn to read His little daily love notes to me saying "Good morning child! I'm here". He helped me to open my eyes to see Him in my husband's beautiful eyes, in my children's laugh, in a friend's smile, in a beautiful sunny day, in a very storming night (I love the rain!), in a very cloudy day, in the blowing wind, in a bird flying in the sky, in the air I breathe, in the beat of my love's heart... He show me all this by saying "you see child, I'm everywhere. Anytime you need me, I'm here. And all you need to do, is open your eyes to see Me right in front of you". He's is there even when there's nothing to see, even, if I was locked in a completely empty and dark room, He would still be there inside me, in the beating of my heart, in every breath that I take.
I've learned this year, that when I feel tormented, stressed or distracted, and one of my children comes to me asking for something like a glass of water, milk, or for some atention, so I got that as God saying "look at me child, I'm just reminding you, I'm right here" (Suffer the little children to come unto me, because theirs is the kingdom of God).
I've learned this year, what great gift is to have a fisical body. But on top of that, I learned that my body don't make me who I truely Am. It's funny how i didn't really get these things before. We learned over and over again in church about the importance of your spirit well being. But then, satan step's right in makes you forget all, by tell you "your body makes you who you are". And today I looked at my body and thought to my self "man! no matter how hard I try to keep my self looking young, when we are all going to have the same destiny... we are all going to die and leave this body on the earth for while...".
 Look at your hand right now, come on, look! Open and close her. Don't you see? That's is not just your body or your brain doing it... IT'S YOUR SPIRIT! Think about it! You did not have a body before, and now, you have this wonderful gift that you can control, that you can feel, smell, speak, blink, see, taste,  breath... just feel it for a moment... relax, let your spirit enjoy this now... your true self... your celestial self... :) That's who you are... you are celestial... a child of God.
Please, don't look at imperfections right now, just be greateful, just live this moment, let your spirit be joyful about this wonderful gift. And to think that two of us, a Man and a Woman together they carry the ingredients that God uses to create more bodies, holy temples, houses for others spirits who will have this same privilege... it's all a beautiful miracle! This is the perfect word to describe... BEAUTIFUL!
Another very important lesson learned in 2010 is always BE GREATEFUL! Not just in words, but by actions too. I learned that a greatful person keeps a very positive atitude about things. And I had to learned that in a very hard way, but I did get the message ;0)
And the final lesson (for now, because I know I have a lot a lot to learn still), TRUST IN GOD WITH ALL THY HEART MIND AND SOUL! That's a testimony I have very strong is DO NOT QUESTION, DO NOT ASK WHY, BUT WHEN GOD ALLOW SOMETHING TO HAPPEN IT'S BECAUSE HE KNOWS BETTER!!!
I am witness of our Father in Heaven's power. I trust Him will all my heart, even when things seems so dificult and hopeless, I know is for our own good. LET THY WILL BE DONE LORD! I don't know how many times I had to do that this year, but I tell you something, everytime I did, things turned around ok, even more than ok. And there is not such a thing as "hopeless", as long as the Savior of the world lives, there will be hope, because Jesus Christ is hope in the form of a person, and He will live forever, and so will hope.
I leave this testemony with all of you for 2010:
God and Jesus Christ live! And their love for us is infinite! And to trust in God is the greatest gift that someone can seek for. And gratitude can bring peace and happiness to someone's heart.
And don't forget " You are a spirit being having human experiences".
In The name of Jesus Christ,
Amen.

I want a Jesus' visit for Christmas

I want to share with all of you a little Christmas story that I've heard when I was 8 years old from a teacher of my from 2nd grade.

"I want a Jesus' visit for Christmas"

It was Christmas eve, and the rich lady was getting ready for bed. She had all the money that someone would like to have, and a beautiful family, and a very nice home. And before she laid down to sleep, she prayed. In her prayer, she asked God "Father in Heaven, I'm very thankful for all that you have done for me, but one thing I ask of thee, please let me have Jesus come to visit me tomorrow, on Christmas day, that would make my life so worth living." And she fell asleep with tears in hear eyes.
That night, she had a dream. In her dream Jesus came to her and said "you shall have as you wish, I'll come tomorrow to spend Christmas with you". And she woke up with her heart full of joy!
She sent the servants to clean up the whole house, and to cook the best feast, because "on this day" she said "we are going to have a very, very special gest. I want everything to be perfect!".
And as the day went on, she hears a knock on the door, she runs to open and to her surprise, there it was, a homeless man baging for some food. She looks at him and says "Oh, I'm so sorry! I wish I could help you today, but I am waiting for someone very special, but if you come back tomorrow, I'll for sure feed you ok?" And the man went on his way.
Few hours later, there was another knock at the door, "that must be Him!" she says, and when she opens, there it was a couple of hungry children baging for some food. She looks at them and says "oh my darlings! I wish I could invite you in, but I am waiting for someone really special today, come back tomorrow, and I give you something all right?" And the children went on their way too.
The day was near the end, and Jesus did not come, and the rich lady's heart was broken... "how could you Lord? You promised me that you would come" and feeling so sad, she deicided to go to bed. And in her dreams, Jesus came again, and she asked him "Lord, why you did not come? I had everything ready for you, but you did not come...why?" And Jesus looked in her eyes and says "My dear child, I came twice to your door and I was very hungry, and both times you send me way".

May the true spirit of Christ will shine in your heart!
Happy CHRISTmas!
Feliz Natal!

Steve died...

Steve died, and went to heaven. When he arrived there, he noticed a line of people in front of a door waiting.
So asked the person in front of him " what is going on there?"
The person anwsers "We are all waiting to be interviewed."
So Steve waited for his turn. And as came closer to the door, he could hear the person who was in front of him being interviewed. He heard the man asking the person "Do you know Jesus?" and the Man says "yes, I do. I know that He preached on the earth, and that He callded apostles to help him on his work". "that's very good." The interviewer says. And then he repeats the question "do you know Jesus?" and the man says "I know that he's our Savior, and that he gave up his life to save all of us." The interviewer looks down with a dispointment expression on his face and tells the man that he could go now, and he calls the next person in line.
Steve enters the room, and when he looks at the interviewer's face he falls down on his knees and says "My Lord! My God! My Savior!

He Lives! My kindly heavenly friend...

He Lives My mansion To Prepare...

He Lives to bring me Savely there.

Do we know Jesus?

I know that My Redeemer Lives!!!

Why do I have To go to Church on Sunday?

I have been thinking about this for a while now, why do I have to go church every Sunday? Does it really matter if I'm there or not? Why so many of the people I know has gone inactive? Why?

After pondering about this, something really hard striked me about our Father in Heaven.

I've heard so many reasons of the "why" someone decided not to go church any more. But one of them that really got me was "I don't need go to church. God don't really care if I'm not there, as long as I keep worshiping from my house, that's all that really matters, because I know He loves me." You know what? There's some truth to that, the part where this person said "I know He loves me" That is true, He loves every single person on this planet. But why would God go through so much... sooo much to have His gospel restored in these latter days, if don't really matter if we are in church or not? Would not be better if He let everything  to be the same from 200 years ago?

You know, ingratitude is one of the number one feelings in this world today. Think of all the things God's chosen have to go through to have this gospel to be restored to this Earth. Look at Joseph Smith, the Pioneers, the Apostles of old... look at our Savior Jesus Christ. If our Father in Heaven don't really care having us on church every sunday, why would He sacrifice His only begotten Son? Why would He allowed such kind man as Joseph Smith, to suffer so much for the church's sake?

And that's how much it matter for all of us to be at church on sundays.

Do we have a testemony of these people who went through severe trials so we could all have what we have now? I do.

It is important that we keep worshiping God from our homes, from our cars, from anywhere, as long we don't lose sight of the importance of the Restoration. This work cost the lives of many, many wonderful people so we could all enjoy the blessings of worshiping God at His house too... every sunday.

He loves us dearly, every single one of us.

Is unbelieveble how so many go inactive for very, very foolish reasons. The church of Christ is not a chuch of the people, but the church of God. The members will never be perfect, but God himself always will.

One time, my Bishop asked the sunday school class this question "why are you guys here today?" after listining to all the anwsers, he said "you're all right. But the number one reason you are all here today is because God has pre-ordeained you, and you all here because of Him."

And he is right!!! That's why I need to be there! I love my God, and not just the people.

I'm very blessed to be part of the restored gospel... WHAT A BLESSING IT HAS BEEN IN MY LIFE!!! I'M TRUELY A HAPPY PERSON!

I'm very blessed to be in a ward full of really wonderful people, who cares about each other, but even though, if that was not case, I would still go, because all that really matters is that matters to God that I am there every sunday.

In the name of Jesus Christ,

Amen.

It really happen... it is true!

I Need You Because I love You...

"I Need You Because I love You! I don't love You because I need you."

Few weeks ago, I watched a special show on PBS about "LOVE". It was there  where I heard the phrase I posted on the top.

It was a very interesting show to watch, it really opened my eyes and mind to alot things. That phrase, got me deep into my soul, and had me wondering about those that I truely love for who they are and not because I need them.

The world today is full of those who loves someone because they have a need of them.

Many claim to love someone, but all they are looking for is to benefit from that "love".  And I took a good look at my self and asked "Do I love them because I need something from them?" And a bunch of people came to my mind, and every single one of them I need in my life because I love them dearly. And those who makes me not feel like myself around them, it just does not work for me.

But what hurts the most, is when we try to show to someone saying "look, I'm here because I love you" and then you relized that they don't love you in the same way, and you feel like your heart is going to brake in a thousand pieces... I know is never easy to go throught something like that but, even to wait to have them love you back is not true love because that's waiting for something in return.

I am very, very greateful for having so many people who chosen to love me for who I am and not even ever question or made fun of my beliefs, my personality or whatever. But they treat me, full of kindness and love and they are always willing to talk and listen.

People of whom on a monthly,weekly even on a daily basis leaves little notes, e-mails, phone calls to let me know that they are there... oh, how I love them! And How I need them because of that!

It will always be hard to love those who don't love you the same way... but you know what? When they are ready, I will be here, because I love them.

One very special man waited for me for 19 years, and to think he loved so deeply even thouhg I couldn't care less about him. But he was patient and loved me anyway and waited until I was ready to turn to him.

Thank you Jesus! Thank you so much for loving me so patiently. Because in the end, when the whole world has turn their back at you, He is going to be the only one with an open arms ready to hug you and to look deep in your eyes and say

"I LOVE YOU!"

All because He is the only one who will be perfect, when everybody else will have failded you.

man.... what a busy week!

This has been a very crazy week! Today is our ward party, and this will be the first party that my hubby and I are organizing for the church. 'Til now, things are running pretty smooth, we got a lot done and lots of fun planned for the party. But what was really cute (as I was getting the chicken ready to marinnete last night), was to watch my hubby helping our little girl to make a poster about her self for school. It was soooo cute to see how involded he was, and how much wants for the poster to look good. That was my *sight* moment of the day.
Now, let's freaking finish organizing everything and take to the park!

hum...

I don't know how to start, has been while since the last time I've posted anything on  my "diarie" blog. But I got tell you this, the month of june was pretty hard for me... not the whole month of june, but just the sad, sad news that I heard from Brazil... I just can't believe that another dear friend has crossed the veil in the blooming youth of her life :'( I was still trying to recover my self from Brent's grandmother loss, I don't think anyone knows how much was still hurting, but I still do have a hard time thinking that grandma is no longer here, and to make things tough, my friend Camila, went to the otherside to be reuinited with her sister Carine of whom I loved so dearly. I just can't believe that now, they are both gone :'(
I know that Heavenly Father knows better, I know his plan is always, always perfect, and that everything happens for a reason. I do know that, and I do have a testimony about that too. But you know what? I'm human, and it's ok to hurt and to mourn the loss of someone dear to you.
And then, another sad news hit me, a friend of my from Provo, lost her 5 month old baby... I cried for her loss, because I could only imagine what she was going through. I cried with the hope that if I mourn for her baby too, would bring her some relief to her sorrowfull heart. But you know what? I'm not Christ. He is the only one who can do that for everyone, and I got to hold onto his hands, and let him hug me, and let him tell me "don't worry, everything is going to be ok, just trust me. You wont hurt very long, not either will them."
I got to have faith! I got trust my Savior, my Creator. I got be strong!
Life is precious, so so precious! I want to be ready when my time comes. I want to have the courage and the faith to know that whatever happens, that things will be all right.
We all got to live life at it's fullest, don't waste your time with stupid things or complaining too much, because is not worth it. Tomorrow don't belong to us. Live today like there is no tomorrow, and life will be a lot better if we live IT and not just survive.
"I'm the master of my fate, and the captain of my soul."