hum...

I don't know how to start, has been while since the last time I've posted anything on  my "diarie" blog. But I got tell you this, the month of june was pretty hard for me... not the whole month of june, but just the sad, sad news that I heard from Brazil... I just can't believe that another dear friend has crossed the veil in the blooming youth of her life :'( I was still trying to recover my self from Brent's grandmother loss, I don't think anyone knows how much was still hurting, but I still do have a hard time thinking that grandma is no longer here, and to make things tough, my friend Camila, went to the otherside to be reuinited with her sister Carine of whom I loved so dearly. I just can't believe that now, they are both gone :'(
I know that Heavenly Father knows better, I know his plan is always, always perfect, and that everything happens for a reason. I do know that, and I do have a testimony about that too. But you know what? I'm human, and it's ok to hurt and to mourn the loss of someone dear to you.
And then, another sad news hit me, a friend of my from Provo, lost her 5 month old baby... I cried for her loss, because I could only imagine what she was going through. I cried with the hope that if I mourn for her baby too, would bring her some relief to her sorrowfull heart. But you know what? I'm not Christ. He is the only one who can do that for everyone, and I got to hold onto his hands, and let him hug me, and let him tell me "don't worry, everything is going to be ok, just trust me. You wont hurt very long, not either will them."
I got to have faith! I got trust my Savior, my Creator. I got be strong!
Life is precious, so so precious! I want to be ready when my time comes. I want to have the courage and the faith to know that whatever happens, that things will be all right.
We all got to live life at it's fullest, don't waste your time with stupid things or complaining too much, because is not worth it. Tomorrow don't belong to us. Live today like there is no tomorrow, and life will be a lot better if we live IT and not just survive.
"I'm the master of my fate, and the captain of my soul."