"I Need You Because I love You! I don't love You because I need you."
Few weeks ago, I watched a special show on PBS about "LOVE". It was there where I heard the phrase I posted on the top.
It was a very interesting show to watch, it really opened my eyes and mind to alot things. That phrase, got me deep into my soul, and had me wondering about those that I truely love for who they are and not because I need them.
The world today is full of those who loves someone because they have a need of them.
Many claim to love someone, but all they are looking for is to benefit from that "love". And I took a good look at my self and asked "Do I love them because I need something from them?" And a bunch of people came to my mind, and every single one of them I need in my life because I love them dearly. And those who makes me not feel like myself around them, it just does not work for me.
But what hurts the most, is when we try to show to someone saying "look, I'm here because I love you" and then you relized that they don't love you in the same way, and you feel like your heart is going to brake in a thousand pieces... I know is never easy to go throught something like that but, even to wait to have them love you back is not true love because that's waiting for something in return.
I am very, very greateful for having so many people who chosen to love me for who I am and not even ever question or made fun of my beliefs, my personality or whatever. But they treat me, full of kindness and love and they are always willing to talk and listen.
People of whom on a monthly,weekly even on a daily basis leaves little notes, e-mails, phone calls to let me know that they are there... oh, how I love them! And How I need them because of that!
It will always be hard to love those who don't love you the same way... but you know what? When they are ready, I will be here, because I love them.
One very special man waited for me for 19 years, and to think he loved so deeply even thouhg I couldn't care less about him. But he was patient and loved me anyway and waited until I was ready to turn to him.
Thank you Jesus! Thank you so much for loving me so patiently. Because in the end, when the whole world has turn their back at you, He is going to be the only one with an open arms ready to hug you and to look deep in your eyes and say
"I LOVE YOU!"
All because He is the only one who will be perfect, when everybody else will have failded you.
