Dear Santa...

Hi Santa! How are you? My mother thaugt me that is always polite to start a letter by asking the person how they are doing. You see, that's a good girl thing.

This was a very good year, I try really hard to be a good girl, but another bad girl call the police on me, I hope that don't ruine things for me and please... don't send me to the naughty list because of that :(

With this letter I'm sending you a picture of my christmas tree, my children decide that the tree had not enough ornaments, so they put some extra effort to make our tree really stand out. Did you like it? :)

Well, I would like to say that you have been very kind to me for the pass few years, you gave me my fairy tale prince like always dreamed of... but my goodness Santa, he is so handsome! I never get tired to look at those beautiful blue eyes of his, and his smile oh boy! Very, very nice santa. But beacuse you gave a such great gift, I got very jelous, I don't like to share him with anybody, and if anyone, specially girls, try to even look at my gift, things can get really ugly. I know that's not nice, but I WONT SHARE! It's my!!! And thank so much for sending him all the way down to Brazil, It's amazing that you found me there santa.
Ok, I am really grateful for the wonderful gifts you gave me on the passing 5 years. I loveeeee every single one of them! I don't know if you can do this, but if could, can you keep them at this age? I don't want them to ever, ever grow up, it's a very scary world out there, I would like to be able to protect them forever... I know this is a hard wish, but please, would you try? I love them too much to have them hurt by this cruel, cruel world full of mean people.
Just few more things, now that I have everything I ever wanted, there just silly things that i would like for christmas this year, I want to sound selfish but please could you take a look over my little list and see each one of this gifts can you afford?

1. yamaha guitar
2. calvin klein "secret obssession" perfume
3. $20
4. a pro Nikon Camera
5. photography class

Thanks santa!

Merry christmas to you!

Love,

Cris Wilberg

I like and don't like...

• I like to sleep at the sound of rain falling on my roof :)
• I don't like frogs, spiders, snakes... :(
• I like butterflies :)
• I don't like satan>:(
• I like my husband's smell :)
• I don't like red lip stick :(
• I like when my mom spoils me :)
• I don't like rudeness... I HATE THAT! :(
• I like good food :)
• I don't like to look ugly :(
• I like a very clean house :)
• I don't like desorganization :(
• I like to sleep on my hubby's chest :)
• I don't like having people yelling at me, if they do, they are going to get it!!! :(
• I like to play games :)
• I don't like people mistreating my children or anyone I love :(
• I like my in-laws :)
• I don't like cold weather :(
• I like paiting...I LOVE PAITING :)
• I don't like avocado :(
• I like blogging :)
• I don't like staying at hospitals :(
• I like going out with family and friends :)
• I don't like the dark :(
• I like weekends :)
• I don't like mondays :(
• I like the smell of my country, Brazil :)
• I don't like feeling bored :(
• I like driving my car :)
• I don't like grumpy people :(
• I like to talk... a lot! :)
• I don't like being late :(
• I like my children's smiles :D
• I don't like when they get sick
• I like what I like :) :0)
• I don't like what I don't like >:(

Losing track...

Is funny how easy is for me to lose track of my thoughts, specially when I am driving alone.
Here is an exemple:

• I can't forget to buy more tape, wrapping paper, and... 35 miles per hour, go your idiot! This is 40 miles per hour road!!!
• I need to start my laudry, I'm almost out of... Ghost Wispper is tonight!
• Seriously, I really need to stop... payless is having a sale? Cool! I am going... that is one cute dog.
• That movie was so funny specially that part were... is very cold today. I am so glad I have my coat on.
• Those christmas light are so pretty, I love this time of... crap! I forgot to buy more diepers!
• biomat... biomat... were is that building? The GPS shows I am almost... umm, I need lip stick.
• Look at my hands, they are so dry and... What should I make for dinner tonight?

And that how it goes every day, every time... What can I do? I am only human just like you.

I love...

• I love hugs and kisses
• I love hot cocoa on a cold day
• I love playing guitar... oh how I love playing that instrument...
• I love taking pitures of what it seens to me to be a perfect moment
• I love creating those moments
• I love being artistic, I've been like this since I was a little girl
• I love my mother, she has always suportted my silly dreams
• I love my children, I wish they never grow up...
• I love my Handsome husband... He is really hot! :)
• I love my friends... I am so blessed to have so many
• I love making new friends
• I love my religion, I know is true, the only true one on the earth
• I love being the only me, I don't think it would be good to have two "me" on the planet
• I love feeling loved
• I love having siblings
• I love to read good book
• I love the Relief Society
• I love my country Brazil
• I love being brazilian, I am so proud of it!
• I love my Savior
• I love shopping!!!!!!!
• I love shoessss
• I love to look nice, even if I am not going anywere
• I love feeling like a little girl sometimes
• I love photography, I think that's very obvious
• I love to love someone
• I love chating with people
• I love to sing even if I am not good as Shakira is
• I love Shakira LOL
• I love rock music!!!
• I love Guitar Hero!
• I love video games
• I love playing with my children
• I love being silly
• I love to make people laugh
• I love being responsible, I know I am not always that way, but that's why I love when I am
• I love my self
• I love navegating the internet
• I love Orkut
• I love hand bags
• I love my brazilian family
• I love my ward
• I love my neighborhood
• I love Facebook
• I love LOL very much
• I love birds
• I love nature
• I love pets, specially cats...so cute!!!
• I love people who respect each other feelings
• I love my new coat
• I love my new hair cut
• I love more than anything, to live one day at the time...

my photo art

photos by Cristina Wilberg

simply... being me

A woman's beauty glows from the inside out when she is loved for who she is and not for what the world is trying to get her to be.

He will not fail thee...

Ask, and shall be given unto you...

I felt so close to him as I was going through my struggle. No matter how much I try to explain to some people, but no one will have the power of understanding that he does. I've learned my lesson, I got what he wants me to get it. And I love him even more deeply for it. I told him how important was for me to find the little things that for some people does not seem like a big deal, but he does not really care, all he cares is how you truely feel and what can he do to make you feel better. So I asked him to help me find my little things... and he did. I found my photo camera, my favorite pants, and my hubby got a bonus at work that made possible for us to have the money from the tickets I'd bought, I even found something elese that I was not looking for, the remote for car's dvd player. I haven't found my video cam yet, but I know I will.
I'm feeling amazing and very happy! I know other trials will come, and all got to remember were I need to go to get the right awnsers, to hear what I need to hear.

I wish...

I wish I never said what I said...

I wish I never believed your complaints

I wish I didn't care so much to the point were I got hurt too

I wish I had a better judgment

I wish I never got so involved

I wish I never had chosen to be involved

I wish I had the guts to tell you "SHUT UP!"

And all that I wish... Is that I was worthy to be there...

Into thy hands I give you my sorrows...

...so I can be made free

Paint by Cristina Wilberg

Ironic, just yesterday I try to tell myself that I was loved

I have been fighting all week this feeling of being punished... and today, I can't help it any longer. The little girl inside my heart is really receiving the message "yes, you are a bad girl that's why you are being punished!" Since the bad event last thursday, my heart has been aching pretty bad. Not only that, but a list of few little weird things going on all around me lately has become a real big deal, like I lost my favorie pair of pants, I lost my video and photo camera, the mouse on the computer broke, I lost my cell phone, I had to cancel my trip to washignton to see my childhood friends because of a very stupid mistake I made when I bought the tickets.... I was supose to be there tomorrow!!!!! I'm so jelous of my other two friends, they are together right now and happy and laughing together... I was supose to be there...there with them too... I just feel like... everything is going wrong around me. And I know I can't blame no one but me. I feel I deserve everything that has happen, and if there is more to come, I deserve that too! I am sooo sad... I wish I could find my favorite pants, or my cameras, or something... at least something. I dont know. I saw that my friends try to call me several times today to let me know that L. arrived safe over there from her trip. I don't feel like talking... not at all.

I have no idea what is the purpose behind all of this, all I feel is that I deserve it. And I probally do, I am not innocent.

Feeling Loved

I don't know if you know this about me already, but I love birds and butterflies! I love all Havenly Father's creations...except for frogs. They are just so ugly! Some people find them pretty fascinating, but I see them as fascinatingly ugly! urgh!

Birds and butterflies have a very special place in my heart. I love them.

Now that we are on winter season, the butterflies are gone, but the birds are still around. Right in front of my kitchen's sink, there's a window, were I look through it every morning to see the sun light and the birds flying in the back yard. Havenly Father knows how much I love them, and when I get to see one, I take that as an "I love you" from the Lord to me, because I know in my heart that's his way to send his love note, because seeing something you love so much it does not just happen, the Lord does on purpose, because he meanted, because he wants us to know how much he loves us. And All that I can say is... "I love you too" in return of his kindness.

Well said...

Very well said..

and I just cried and cried...

Yep! Because I felt like the most horrible mother on the earth today... Man! I'm sooo greatful for the gift of the Holy Ghost, he really saved my life today as I was stuck at the supermarket parking in lot with a car that would not freaking shut off the alarm system, and with four kids in the car hungry and tired and three of them were just CRYING their heads out because they all want to go home!!!

And everything started as I was at the store, for a few minutes, and a lady on the car next to my decide to call the police when I showed up and told them about my unattend children... I just couldn't believe that was happening to me... I just cried and cried... why? Because I couldn't start the car, I couldn't get the stupid alarm to shut it off because we never had the locker!!! (I'm so angry!!) and to make it worst, when the police officer arrived, the idiot lady stood there starring at me like I was the worst mother on the planet! That does it! She really got what she wanted from me and that is to make feel like a was not a good mom... and I felt like that... I am still feeling that I am a horrible mother!

AWWW!!! How sweet what just happen to me right now, my dear daughter just gave me a kiss and a hug... she probally felt I was in need of some love. Her kiss and hug I'll take as a testemony from her that I'm not a bad mom... thanks a lot darling!

How the Holy Ghost saved me? Well, as I sat in the car crying and praying, a very soft voice spoke to me and said how I could stop the alarm for going off. He told me to lock the car from the inside and to give tha car key to the police officer to open the door from the outside, and guess what? It work!

What A afternoon! Thank goodness I wont take that as MY WHOLE DAY was ruinned, but just as an AFTERNOON... that will do just fine.

Yes...

Is pretty cold, and I would love to have a cup of hot cocoa... but there are so many things that I would love to have. One of them is that I would love to get rid of this ugly purple sweater I'm wearing right now, it makes me look like an old lady! I wish I'd had never bought this sweater... frustrading huh? It's ok, at least the sweater serves it's purpose in keep me warm, he is not completely useless, but if it was, it would make the situation a lot worst, so I have to be greatful for that. How funny! Look how I'm so focus on this stupid sweater, I dind't even know how much it bother me 'til now... hum... Life is weird... and I love every single minute of it!

p.s. that is not the sweater, my is too ulgy to post a picture.